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I am so depressed

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 01:50:18 GMT

So I took another pregnancy test today. I've been feeling queasy day & night lately so I thought wow this could really be happening! So I splurged on one of the pricey tests that can supposedly tell sooner than the rest, and I used the first urine of the day. Another negative result.

I am just losing hope. I am only 24, I should be able to conceive quickly! I have been off birth control since march 08, had a period on my own in october, which was a great feat alone since the only reason I ever started birth control was to force my body to menstuate. I just don't understand how we can have unprotected sex for over six months and still not be pregnant. I am just so depressed. Its like I'm broken.

I hate how life isn't fair when it really matters.

Fri, 26 Dec 2008 02:06:04 GMT

I can't stand how such precious items somehow end up in the hands of someone who doesn't really appreciate them and only sees dollar signs when they look at them.

If I had them they would mean the world to me. I would cherish them and love them and use them as a sweet reminder of a loved one passed. I would hold them dear and pass them to my children and make sure they never left the family.

It breaks my heart to think these treasures, the last few remaining pieces in a jigsaw puzzle of family memories that are slowly fading away, are probably just going to be sold to the highest bidder.

I know rules had to be adhered to, but I wish things could have been different. They would have meant the world to me.

Its amazing how some people survive.

Tue, 03 Jul 2007 19:45:30 GMT

Okay so this woman comes up to the service desk with an *empty* kroger bag in one hand, and a *leaking* bag of green grapes in the other hand. Why the grapes were not in the bag, I will never figure out. She plops the grapes on the counter, grape juice leaking all over it and over both edges onto the outside counter and onto our phone.... She proceeds to pull out a crumpled receipt. First she says "I didn't notice the condition of these grapes when I bought them yesterday, I would like a refund." I just looked at her and asked "Do you want to put the grapes in that bag so they don't keep leaking all over the counter?" And secondly, how the hell do you not notice the condition of an item you are buying, especially when you're buying it TO EAT. Was the clear bag not enough? Does she blindfold herself to make her shopping trip more exciting? (((She's probably the same type of person who would freak out because their toilet paper package had a rip in it, because, you know, if you're going to WIPE YOUR ASS with something, it MUST be perfect when you buy it.... and then doesn't pay any attention to the condition of the items she is going to CONSUME.))) So I threw the bag of grapes into the plastic bag she had and threw them in the garbage and started with the refund. I circled the price of the grapes on the receipt, and gave her the money for them. She looked at the money for a moment and then asked "How much did they cost?" OMFG how do you people even survive in the real world??? First you buy something without looking at it, then you FIND IT ON YOUR RECEIPT and you still don't know what you paid for it??? And then she starts to say something like "no i paid $2.77, not $1.53" .... but luckily she was smart enough to realize that the $2.77 was the price before the shoppers card. I think I probably would have just flipped out if she had argued with me over how much she paid. So then she left and I proceeded to wipe up the grape juice that was now all over the phone and both sides of the counter.

"People who work at service desks are bitches." <----- Can you tell WHY?? O_O Do you see the kind of stupidity we have to deal with on a daily basis? The one thing that just runs through my mind all day long is "these people are driving on our streets." And then I get scared and go into fetal position.

ahhh... vacation =D

Wed, 30 May 2007 17:10:31 GMT

So nice to finally just get a break from going to work. *sigh* I was off on Saturday and my vacation started Sunday. So it was like an extra day of it. ^^ I've gotten alot of housework finished too. It's so nice right now... I've got the air conditioning turned off, all the windows are open and all our ceiling fans are running, creating a nice breeze throughout the house. Our computer sits right next to the window that is on the side of the the house that is higher from the ground, and I can sit here and type and look down at the road and the grass. The breeze outside is so strong that every few minutes the wind blows and the curtains billow in and nearly touch the desk. =) I like warm breezes. I also have a cold glass of sweet tea, and I can faintly here the radio in the kitchen, and I'm watching Days of Our Lives muted. So nice. ^^ Oh dear my attention span isn't that long and I'm suddenly bored. RollerCoasterTycoon!!111! *puts on rocket boots*

Happy SinkHole-de-Mayo!

Wed, 09 May 2007 02:29:43 GMT

ROFL! I heard that on the radio today! Because last night a giant sinkhole emerged across pelissippi parkway and nearly shut the whole thing down!! It was truly awesome. they said it was like 20 ft wide underneath the 4ft wide opening. It was a bear trying to get out of oak ridge this morning. one lane of traffic driving on the shoulder. x_x and then I heard them say on the radio "happy sinkhole de mayo!" and it made me laugh. xD

And on a side note check out this pic i took when sara and i were driving around pigeon forge. classic. i love it. taken directly below a red light and a sign saying 'do not block intersection'.... there was this woman in an suv to the right that you can't see... she was honking her horn at us and yelling. it was awesome. x)

Look out world, I am BACK!

Wed, 02 May 2007 14:50:57 GMT

Yes, that's right! We finally got our internet hooked up and I am back in business! So nice! Windows vista is nicer than I expected too! I was fairly disappointed in the new look of neopets.com... 47 days ago when my computer usage abruptly stopped due to my monitor being fried in a storm, neopets was still cute and user friendly. Now I can't find anything and they've made it to look just like all the other neopets-imitation sites. way to go guys. -_- In other news, Brian and I are almost settled into our new house. lol that's an exaggeration but seriously, I finally got all my stuff out of my parents' house! It's all here, just not put away yet. ;) There are boxes and bags everywhere. But whilst cleaning my old bedroom I found an entire laundry basket full of flip flops! fwee! I found one pair that I had bought in 3 different colors... =D welcome summer! Ugh, I still have so much to do in terms of this new computer though. It came with so much stuff already on it... I need to delete all that stuff and install all the drivers and stuff for my monitor and hook up the new printer/scanner/copier... yes... copier! I couldn't believe it was also a copier. xD The little things make my day. ^^ I also still need to get all my stuff off my old pc and install all my games here. I just hope they are all compatible with vista. =( And seriously, I have to go to work in like... an hour. But it only took me 3 hours to get this thing out of the box, set up, back-up discs created, and internet installed! I am so glad to be back! *hugs computer* Well I seriously have some myspacing to catch up on since its impossible to copy/paste bulletins on my stupid cellphone which is supposedly a newer more sophisticated phone, but yet it lacks the ability copy/paste... *grumble* =D

Yes i want lemon in my tea! do i look like riffraff?

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 00:05:00 GMT

Okay updates! Brian and I are finally move into our little house! Our stuff is not fully unpacked yet though and we just bought an internet/directv/phone package as soon as i can get a new computer we will have internet again and i can finally post more entries for your entertainment... and I seriously have some major stuff to rant about. Don't worry, I've been keeping a list of stuff I've been wanting to gripe about for months. heh.

oh seriously i can't think of anything else i need to say which is exactly what i expected would happen when i FINALLY got a chance to friggin get on a computer. But you just wait.... once we get our pc and get it all hooked up and such and I can just leisurely type out all my anger. and you will be amazed. people are so stupid. period. and that's how i will end this one.

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

"You got that out of the toilet? I wanna touch it!" -Julianne and the stingray

I know you miss me

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 04:16:44 GMT

So basically my computer exploded into tiny bits during the storm last week. Okay it didnt explode, it just sounded more interesting that way. So we are working on getting a new one. Do not fear. I will be back before you know it. And i also think i deserve some comments on my myspace just for having an attention span long enough and fingers strong enough to type this on my cellphone...without chatspeak. See kids? it can be done! *Points to myspace address at the top of this page*

Yes, I am procrastinating.

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 19:00:07 GMT

I do not feel like going to get ready to go furniture shopping. Therefore I will find any reason to write a new entry. OMG I made smoothie! Is that interesting enough? Ingredients: handful of grapes, handful of blueberries, handful of pitted cherries, 3 slices frozen peaches, one kiwi, half a banana, splash of milk, splash of OJ and a cup of chipped ice. Blend until smooth. ;)

In other news, my car is finally fixed! Two weeks, $400 and countless freakouts later, I can finally pass people at 80mph uphill again! ^^ Not being able to get up enough speed to pass anyone was really depressing me. You can't really be a smartass and pass all the pansies when your car backfires and sputters when you hit the gas. *shifty eyes* Look out world... I'm back. ;D

And in other other news, we are looking for a livingroom suit today. Okay well we are not set on an entire suit, but if we find one at a good price I think we'll go for it. Mainly we are just in pursuit of a super quality dual reclining sofa. mmmm comfort. ^^ We found one we like... its awesome. And if you look at it right from far away, it looks like its smiling at you. haha.

Okay my mind is empty of thoughts now, and i still dont want to get ready. guess I'll eat some Peeps. xD *bites off head first* mmmm sugary Easter goodness. :D

I JUST DON'T GET IT.

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 04:57:45 GMT

Okay guys I am starting a never-ending entry called "I Just Don't Get It." Anytime I need to rant about something, I will just add it to this list and update the time/date so it shows up as a new entry. There are just so many things that annoy me, I figured I should share with the world. ;D I will put the newest rants on the top so anybody who actually reads my blog won't have to scroll down to the end to see new ones. ^^

How in the hell is it possible for you to completely destroy a piece of paper in the time it takes you to walk from the coinstar machine to the cash register? I mean seriously. These people they just walk over and hand me these coinstar vouchers that look and feel like they've been left in a puddle of sweat, blowtorched, chewed on, used as a napkin, and put through the wash cycle. Is it really that hard to just friggin NOT mutilate something that I'll have to put through a machine to redeem? It would be different if you didn't cash them in IMMEDIATELY, i could understand that. But seriously, how the hell do these people accomplish such destruction in like 2 minutes? O_o

I don't understand why someone can't take an extra millisecond to mark Y or N for powerplay on their powerball playslips. It's not that hard. Then they get annoyed with me when I ask them if they want powerplay and then they grumble "NO"! And then I nicely show them the Y/N option on the playslip and the man was like "you showed me that last time." oooookay then why the hell don't you use it? I DO KNOW that some people leave it unmarked because they KEEP their playslips to reuse and sometimes they do/don't want powerplay. But I'm talking about the morons who just simply throw away the slips (or rip them into tiny shreds and leave them laying on the counter) after they buy their tickets. Is it like bad luck or something to mark the freaking powerplay box?!?!